The end of a long week

This week was the first full week with students at school. It was long. I now remember why I love Friday afternoons so much. I can't believe I'd forgotten!!!

So how am I travelling?

I'm still keeping up with my goal to go to the gym 3-4 times a week (seeing the trainer twice a week helps keep the total visits up, but it has generally been 4 times a week). I feel pretty good about that. I do feel a lot stronger and I'm not getting back and shoulder pain like I used to. I'm not really losing any weight though (don't think I'm losing size either), so I think I need to do something about eating... more to the point, how much I eat, exactly what I'm eating and when I eat! I decided to let the weightwatchers membershp go a couple of weeks ago, becasue they changed their system and it really wasn't working for me. Also, I think because I've been subscribing to WW for so long now I got bored and stopped paying attention to it enough. I think if I re-think my food each day I should be able to manage to lose weight without feeling hungry and grumpy. This next week I aim to eat more protein, a lot less rice and pasta, and not touch the bikkie barrel at work.

The whole size issue does get to me every now and then, I actually get quite depressed about it even though I know what I need to do to fix the problem:
I know I've lost 15kg in the past and kept it off for almost 2 years, but then I went and put it all back on again in the space of 6 months! It really does upset me when I look in the mirror and see fat face, or bulgy bits that just look repulsive.
I know I'm working to lose it again and also changing my lifestyle so that it's more active. I know it is having a positive impact on how strong I am. I know that eventually I will see results and change my shape.
I know that my being a size 12-14 is not obese, even though according to BMI calculations I am obese. I also know from experience that for me 8kg does not equal a dress size. 15kg is a dress size in my case. So I have a lot of hardwork ahead of me. Can I do it? YES I CAN!